This is the one day each year when my deep-seeded joy and ever present sadness mingle the most. My heart always sings along with the carols playing wherever I go because it’s an easy opportunity to thank The Lord for all He’s done in my life over the past year. I’ve seen His handy work around every corner this year and I’m beyond grateful. There has been frustrating struggles and devastating disappointments, but also exhilarating triumphs. However, it pains me to say that in the quietest moments of the last couple months my heart has been weighed down by a profound loneliness, as I am missing two of my closest friendships. It has greatly dampened my motivation and enthusiasm for my work, and also made me pull away in my relationship with The Lord.
I know He hasn’t left me. He’s only waiting for me to step back into His arms. I just can’t seem to find the words to articulate all that I’m feeling. But, as I sat in Christmas service at church on Sunday, God used a new song to remind me that my sadness and loneliness are just that… Feelings. He understands why I’m having them, but He is bigger. Jesus is more than my feelings. So much more. I just have to make room in my heart for Him to keep writing His Story.
As I’ve listened to “Make Room” by Casting Crowns over again in the last couple days, I am even more conscience of the true and eternal meaning of Christmas this year because Jesus has given me a priceless gift in each circumstance I’ve encountered throughout these past months. I hope the video below is a blessing to you!
And we know that the Son of God has come, and he has given us understanding so that we can know the true God. And now we live in fellowship with the true God because we live in fellowship with his Son, Jesus Christ. He is the only true God, and he is eternal life. -1 John 5:20